Wednesday, February 2, 2011

"twirl through the driveway with angelic grace Till I slip on the sidewalk and fall on my face This peppermint winter is so sugar sweet.."

Hello again. It's been a while since I have wrote. Bluffton is GREAT! I am getting along wonderfully, it came back to me easier than I thought it would. But there is not a day that goes by that I do not think of CMC and my semester 19 family. 

So there has been a really neat job come up. Copyright Administrator. It looks really good and promising. I am still praying about it because its a big decision. But it really is starting to look like I am going to move somewhere else, and leave Ohio. 

Leaving Ohio, sounds so strange to me. I did it for for four months...but years? Gosh that is hard to take I guess. I was writing in my journal yesterday and I felt my heart breaking as it finally hit me that I am growing up. Growing up, and moving on. I can picture myself as a little girl again. Running to the library with my cousin Dustin. Laughing with my brother Dakotah about nothing. Talking with my parents after school and rambling about everything. The hugs and love. Everything. 

What's going to happen on the day that I see my family in my rear view mirror as I drive away? Things won't be the same. Seven hours isn't impossible but its far. 

God will be there though. So will my family and friends. I'll make it :) Here's to the start of February! 

<3 MusicMajor11

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

"...and we'll be a dream..."

Even though this blog was meant for my semester away I still feel a pull to write in it. It's now day two of my last semester at Bluffton. It has been wonderful seeing all of my friends and profs :) As I sit and listen to my CMC friend's recordings my heart sinks a bit. I miss them. I miss that semester a lot. Nothing beats being around music 24/7 for 4 months. That semester will forever in my mind be the best semester ever. Life moves on and doesn't seem to stop for anyone. Even though sometimes my mind is still back in Brentwood I know that I must keep pushing forward. There is a lot to look forward to in these next couple months. 

CMC feels like a dream. Sometimes I wonder...did I really go there? Or did I just dream it up? It was that good. What made it good wasn't the music or equipment or that it was in Music City. No, it was the people. Semester friends, my family. I will be forever grateful that I meant them. I wish them all the best of luck. A piece of my heart will forever be in Nashville and with Semester 19. 

Well here's to the last semester of my college career!! :D

<3 MusicMajor11 

P.S Please visit this facebook page these two are talented!! Very talented!! :D I was privileged to work with them this past semester along with Rachel.!/pages/Winston-Julia/173803895966364

Sunday, December 12, 2010

"I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean, whenever one door closes I hope one more opens..."

It's December 12th and the last couple of days have been crazy. We had our Mock Grammies at CMC last Monday, classes Tuesday, Pack day Wednesday, and Last Supper Thursday. Then Friday my parents bravely drove 7 hours down to get me and then we drove 7 hours back to home sweet home. 

Let me tell you a bit about my last days at CMC. They, bittersweet, wonderful, unforgettable and just plain amazing. I will never be the same person. At last supper we enjoyed a wonderful meal with wonderful fellowship. I didn't want the night to end. We watched the ever so funny tour video :-) Which was put together by the lovely Lisa! Following that we had a very emotional sharing time. People were sharing from their hearts and it took a lot for me to keep from crying. Here were these amazing people I would be forced to say good bye to the next day. I spoke, even though I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. Once all the sharing was over I remember hugging Lisa and just crying. I am really not one to cry in public settings but I just didn't care. I tried to hug everyone before they left knowing I might not see them the next day. My heart really did feel like it was breaking that night. It's like I loved them all so much it hurt. I wouldn't replace that night for anything. 

What's going to happen now? Well I have made a vow to myself to keep in contact with my CMC family and to one day see them all again. I also am still a little cloudy on my future but I know that God will take care of that. I am still thinking about doing publishing and more than likely I will be moving after graduation, maybe to Nashville. 

I am very grateful to have this month of break to help me recoup and to catch up on things. I did miss home a lot and I can't wait to visit Bluffton to see everyone. I am also very excited to spend time with friends from home and family. I am looking forward to many fun days ahead. 

To God, thank you for everything You are and I love you so much!!!

To my family and friends that supported me I love you all so much and I am glad to be back! 

To my mentors, profs I love you all too and I am glad to have you in my life. 

To my special CMC family, I will always have a place in my heart for you. Know that I will never forget you and you've changed my life. I love you all.

Well this is it. I have enjoyed writing this blog throughout the semester and I hope that you have enjoyed reading :)

Even though I am home a little piece of my heart will always belong to Semester 19. 

<3 MusicMajor11 


Saturday, December 4, 2010

"I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate..."

I seriously had the most amazing day yesterday, two words...Relient K. Well one word and a letter. They rocked my socks, I have always wanted to see them play. Alex, Amy, Christine, and myself rode together to see the show. Our friend Kevin and a buddy of his came as well. The concert was held at Rocktown, a really neat venue in Nashville. Two other bands also played before Relient K, they were Sherwood and Deas Vail. Both bands were really good, and I was so sad that I hadn't heard of them before. The concert had some Christmas music which was wonderful, I love Christmas songs. When Relient K came on I was so pumped. They are probably one of my very favorite bands of all time. One of my favorite songs they performed was Be My Escape. This was by far my favorite show I've ever been to! 

Tonight was our Christmas party which was a lot of fun. I had a really great time with all my friends. We sang a few Christmas carols and i could feel myself tearing up a bit. I just keep realizing how much I am going to miss all these wonderful people. Another thought that I had was about the way I've presented myself. My sincere hope is that I have presented myself well to my friends here. I hope that I have been an encouragement and a fun person to be around. 

I am excited to go home but at the same time I'm scared. Knowing that I'll never be with this group of people in this setting again really bums me out. Plus a lot of things are changing in my life. One of my best friends from home just got engaged, I am so happy for her. I am really interested to see what happens when I get home and how I react to all that has changed. Even though I was just home things change. 

I have done some more thinking about my future, still not completely sure of where I'm headed. But I do feel better about it, I feel like God is closer again. I think that I will get things figured out, God knows my heart and where I need to go. I am so glad I am not just aimlessly wondering around, He's got it all under control. I love Him for that as well as everything else. God is good no matter where I am and what I am doing. I love you God <3

<3 MusicMajor11

Relient K

Matt from Relient K!

Cutest member of Relient K ;-)

Thursday, December 2, 2010

"Don’t you give up now The sun will soon be shining You gotta face the clouds To find the silver lining..."

We are starting work on our massive final exam...21 pages! I am kind of nervous about only because it is tailored specifically to our track. Plus the whole entire semester is covered. Oh.My. Goodness. But I know that we will get through it, some of the parts are quite introspective though. They ask about what we think our purpose is and what we want to do with our lives. It is something that I really do need to think about because I am very unsure of everything right now.

I am really not sure what to feel right now. I feel very lost, the path ahead is really hard to find. I feel as though I am standing in the forest kind of like Pocahontas does in her second movie. In the scene she has just ran away from John Smith and John Rolfe. As she runs into the forest she finds a place where there are several different paths. Eventually she says "listen to the spirit within" and leaves guide her to the path she needs to take. I am trying my very hardest to listen to the spirit within to figure out where I need to go and who I need to be. Graduating college is going to completely change everything in my life. The only thing that I have ever known has been school. Now I need to go out into the real world and get a job. But not just any job, a job that will make me happy and glorify God. 

This season of uncertainty I believe is truly testing my faith. It is happening for a reason and I know that God has a purpose in it. It truly is hard to find that purpose when everything around me is going so fast. I know for sure that I am definitely not going to give up no matter how long it takes. I am going to make the best of this situation :-) So here it goes, I am going to give it my all these last days here at CMC. 

<3 MusicMajor11

Monday, November 29, 2010

"Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything I thought I knew You were the one I loved..."

It's been a long while since I've wrote...tour was fantastic and much enjoyed. My Thanksgiving break was great, had such a good time with the family. I had a good drive back to Nashville with my dad and little brother. It was really cool to return to Brentwood to find that sense of familiarity. I was so excited to see my CMC family, I love them all so much. 

I feel so strange being back, I am processing so much right now. I find my heart already breaking for the eminent departure from the CMC. I am not sure what will happen when it comes to saying good-bye. I feel torn because I really do want to return to Bluffton, it's not that. It's just when you live and work with a small community for 3 months you seriously become a family. The thought of not seeing these awesome people everyday makes me really sad. I am going to miss this so much! 

These last two weeks are pretty full with activity including the Christmas Party and Last Supper. When I looked at the schedule for our remaining time it really sunk in. It seems so strange for us to be back but only to have a few short weeks left. I feel that we will all start to get back into things only to have them come to an end. This semester has been one of the best experiences of my life so far. I couldn't imagine not coming here at this time in my life. I certainly hope anyone who is interested in this program applies. It will change your life. Forever. I have made serious life long friends here, friends that will last. 

Right now I am really trying to process what I am going to do with the rest of my life and how music is a part of that. I really want to pursue publishing, but I have no idea where to start. I know  that God has went ahead of me and made the path. He is just giving me that path one step at a time. For now I really think that I can accept that, even though it is hard. I am going to try and remain strong and still before the Lord. He'll pull through, I know He will. 

Good night Everyone!

<3 MusicMajor11
My recording family and I :D

Rachel and I :)

Friday, November 19, 2010

"I'm walking on sunshine whoooa and don't it feel good..."

Well tomorrow is our very last day on tour. Wow. The show's have been really good and we have all worked very hard together. It is sad to see that we are almost done, but I am excited to see my family. It's been almost three months, the longest time I have even been away from home. I feel like I have changed an grown in good ways. I have discovered things about myself that I didn't even know. I have met some really incredible people whom I will never forget. I love the CMC and I love this tour. It has been a blast being on the marketing team and getting to know people from different schools. Each school has been different in size and type of people. Which makes it fun because you can connect with so many different types of people. 

Tomorrow is our very last show at Taylor University. We leave the hotel at about ten and then we arrive at Taylor to start the unload. Everything has gone great these past three days. The tear down is so fast and everyone has done a great deal of work. It's nice to see everyone working hard to get everything together. 

Tomorrow I will be managing my last show with my artist's Winston & Julia alongside my partner Rachel. It has been a blast managing my artists and just learning about what it takes to be a band/artist manager. 

I can't express how much I love my fellow CMC'ers and this program. I will certainly miss it. Well this time tomorrow I will be with my family :-) God is so awesome. 

Well here's to the end of a really great tour!!!! 

<3 MusicMajor11